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I have been reading Henry James's "Portrait of a Lady," and the heroine of book reminds me of myself to the point where I get a little freaked out. I think that she will come to a horrible fate though, and that scares me even more. It's sort of saying it's good to be ambitious and flexible and all that, but if you don't have a goal, or some strong convictions society won't reward you and you'll be a miserable failure in the end.

So it's been making me think (among other things, leaving Japan this summer being one of them) that I need to start making my goal in life. I would love nothing more to keep going to new places and learning about different things and meeting new people. But that lifestyle is not prestigious and I still feel the need to seek some prestige.


In other news, like all other foreigners in Japan this month, I have had my share of physical ailments. Colds, infections, headaches, fatigue, yada yada yada. But I think I'll be ok now. I have been going out seeing people a lot, and enjoying myself in general. It's really going to be sad to leave Japan, though I want to see everyone back home very much.

I wanted to post some pictures last night, but I got home from the Horikoshi's, and called Hideki then I passed out. I'll do it tonight hopefully.