Living with the Jungle

This week I went back to my regular schedule since losing Dad. It was so weird not talking to him at those regular intervals like how i used to. For instance, usually I would call after teaching on Wednesday before jumping on the subway, but this week when I called home no one was there to answer the phone. It's little moments like this that get to me, and I go in and out of the full realization that I will never talk to him again. I've gone to his room to talk to him several times as it is.

My sister leaves for Greece in a few days, I don't know how it'll be for mom and I once she goes, I suspect it will be strange for a long while until a new routine is established. I'm trying to think about how to structure my life from here on out. There are a lot of things I want to do with myself, and more and more I've realized the barriers I've set up which prevent me from achieving my goals. Maybe with a little perseverance and clarity from this constant stress will help me figure out what I need to do.

Thanks to all of you for the kind words, and I hope to be in touch with all of you in person sometime soon.

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